| Hey loves, I have not been on in quite some time due to the fact that I have swine flu. I got to admit, this flu is quite the bitch. I am finally feeling better... I haven't been eating near anything since Saturday. Today I ate my first full sandwhich... which I wish I didn't consume. It made me feel sick. So... probally nothing for dinner. I don't feel like I'm loosing weight though. I sure wish I felt a lot skinnier. But, I must think of it this way... I have to be loosing something ya? It's atleast not hurting any weight loss.
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| this time it hurt the most
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| The drinking never stops
because the drinks absolve our sins.
We sit and grow our roots into the floor...
But what are we waiting for?
I have not updated in quite some time now. Well about weight loss. Most likely because there has been no weight loss. I have deff. decided that I am going to do weight watchers again. It works great as long as you stick to it. Plus, it doesn't even feel like you're on a diet.
I want to be one of those cute girls that can look amazing in big comfy low rise sweat pants and a tight fitted hoodie... with a little bit of stomach showing. Hair a mess with glasses on. I want to be one of those delicately dressed indie girls.. with the loose bracelets around my tiny wrists. I want my legs to look nice thin and toned with my nice heels on. I want to look nice in some boyshorts and my boyfriends t-shirt.. walking around the house. I want all of that, I really do.
"I hate to say it but it has to be said;
You look so fragile as I fuck with your head.
I know it shouldn't, but it's getting me on,
If sex is the drug then what is the cost.
I almost told you that I loved you,
Thank God I didn't 'cause it would've been a lie."
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| First off, my bunny of 6 years died. She had a siezure in my arms coming back from the veterinarian's office... I held her and pet her as she made her last breaths... it was just awful to watch. I miss her. I can't stop crying.
This kid I know, Jake, got into a horrible car accident while drunk driving. A 17 year old girl died and got hit crushed by the car. The thing is this car was COREY'S car, the party was at COREY'S house, and COREY got arrested just last month for drunk driving, causing a accident, and drug possession. Granted it IS Jake's fault for agreeing to drive... Corey should have learned his lesson. Jake is now facing 20 years in prison. Corey though... is telling people that 'Jake had an evil look in his eye'. Corey was chatting up this girl, he was wanting to date her. The DAY AFTER the accident he was trying to have ANOTHER party in his house and the DAY AFTER THAT his facebook status was 'chilling with a bunch of my girls.' Fuck off loser. He just never stops partying.
My cousin got pulled over and arrested for drunk driving.
The same cousin yesterday got into a near fatel accident (not his fault this time). Someone went through an intersection, t-boned him, he got hit from the back, ran into a telephone tower that knocked out the electricity in the whole town.
   
My friend Kels nearly died from a staph infection because one hospital turned her away.
I'm gaining weight
Now I feel like I'm going to puke
& I just got my wisdom tooth out yesterday right after my bunny died.
Ugh.
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| "I like a girl with caked up makeup
In the sunshine, smoking cigarettes to pass the time
Who wakes up to a bottle of wine on the nightstand
Bites and scratches the blinds."
Damn... I really hope this new challenge works. I want to start going to the gym daily... but this ride there is KILLING me. Fuckin' hell man. I keep staring at those lucky pants just thinking how I must fit into them... and soon. If I could loose nearly 25 pounds by December I should be able to... I'm going to have to stop being lazy and make all my meals the night before. I'm going to be making my snacks too. I have to follow these steps or else I will never be happy. Ever.
Now I must start cleaning my room. I need to have my zone fixed up haha...
This is my senior portrait I chose.
It is one of the two... they are pretty much the same so yeah.
Anyways loves... good luck... chat soon... and go team jade!
-Heather xx
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